I fucking hate men, they think they can just disappear or some shit after the "deed" is done. I'm really frustrated ok I was supposed to meet up with a guy, I waited for an hour he never turned up and told me he had to go because his friend was in trouble? are you fucking kidding me, he probably just saw my face and ran away, I'm just never good enough for anyone am I.
It's really so ridiculous, don't they have a heart or something? It's really not funny, and another guy, I was supposed to meet him but then he told me he can't cause he met up with a girl on Tuesday and blah blah blah ok fine at least he's being honest but fuck, it hurts. Fuck that girl , I hope she just leaves him or something.
I also had another guy I was dating for a bit really really liked him and then he suddenly tells me he can't see me anymore because of his damn morals? what??? Am I really that corrupted and fucked up? I was really trying to adapt to him and really liked him, I honestly have no luck with guys and it really sucks. He wasn't even courageous enough to come up to me and tell me. I still see him occasionally and it really hurts.
Don't tell me I'm over reacting because I'm not.
Jul 30, 2015
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Jun 21, 2013
Ok bye
Going to start a new proper blog cause this one's incredibly embarrassing.
But I'm still going to post about my life.
I was DEFINITELY drunk when I was writing the previous post...
But I'm still going to post about my life.
I was DEFINITELY drunk when I was writing the previous post...
I Don't Even Know
I haven't blogged in a while so I would like to write down my thoughts today.
Oh and today's my sister's birthday.
Happy Birthday Arisa!
My first post in 2013!
This year started off great, ( January). I really like my class, they're really quiet in a good way. I really like my teachers this year too!
German class is my favorite, I've been learning so much. My second favorite class would be History, then, probably Chemistry.
Well so.. around I don't know, February? Everything just became shit again.
I felt like , I don't know... going back to my Year 2-3 days. I felt so horrible. I heard things from people like " Oh she's fat" " She's so ugly" " She thinks she's hot shit", you know, those kind of words. Words that really really really hurt. So I know that I'm not exactly slim , yes I AM pretty ugly, but I just don't understand why people have to discuss about this. My friend has also been called " pork" and things on Twitter and I really don't understand what goes through people's minds when they write out these kind of things on Twitter. Was it really necessary? I don't think they understand that people actually commit suicide after these kind of comments are written. They'll probably start giving a fuck after the person's dead, which is really sad. Oh and the funniest part is , she's not even fat! AT ALL. OH, and I can also say a lot of horrible things about these people who said stuff about us , but no, we choose and chose not to cause we don't want to be the " bully" bullying the bully... haha.
Well, okay, we tried not giving a fuck about what these people say, but obviously we could not forget those MEANNNN UNKINDDD words, so we've been going on this whole exercise, eating-healthy routine, and it's going really well so far! I can see results (:
Seriously though, just cause we don't cry in school, doesn't mean we're hurt. Well, I cried in school 3 times this year... I know I'm weak.
I really thought I liked this cohort but hahaha I change my mind. This cohort's horrible... When are they going to grow up? Start acting their age? I don't even know. I kinda feel bad for them. They really have nothing better to talk about.
Well, so this year I'm going to ... I didn't even do or say anything in the first place... I don't understand why I'm getting all this unnecessary attention from people. I'm just going to get by this year, hopefully.
Everything died down, as of now... I have a feeling this whole thing would start again.
I can't even seem to post a picture of my face without hesitating or photoshopping my face... to make myself look better...
I just can't help it.. I choose not to give a fuck, but I really can't help it. I can't ignore hurtful words, I'm sure most people can't either. Well, I can ignore it, but it will stay in my mind forever, you know. I'll still know that people have called me ugly, fat, and stuff, I know they're simple words that shouldn't be affecting me at all, but god damn, those words hurt.
Oh and today's my sister's birthday.
Happy Birthday Arisa!
My first post in 2013!
This year started off great, ( January). I really like my class, they're really quiet in a good way. I really like my teachers this year too!
German class is my favorite, I've been learning so much. My second favorite class would be History, then, probably Chemistry.
Well so.. around I don't know, February? Everything just became shit again.
I felt like , I don't know... going back to my Year 2-3 days. I felt so horrible. I heard things from people like " Oh she's fat" " She's so ugly" " She thinks she's hot shit", you know, those kind of words. Words that really really really hurt. So I know that I'm not exactly slim , yes I AM pretty ugly, but I just don't understand why people have to discuss about this. My friend has also been called " pork" and things on Twitter and I really don't understand what goes through people's minds when they write out these kind of things on Twitter. Was it really necessary? I don't think they understand that people actually commit suicide after these kind of comments are written. They'll probably start giving a fuck after the person's dead, which is really sad. Oh and the funniest part is , she's not even fat! AT ALL. OH, and I can also say a lot of horrible things about these people who said stuff about us , but no, we choose and chose not to cause we don't want to be the " bully" bullying the bully... haha.
Well, okay, we tried not giving a fuck about what these people say, but obviously we could not forget those MEANNNN UNKINDDD words, so we've been going on this whole exercise, eating-healthy routine, and it's going really well so far! I can see results (:
Seriously though, just cause we don't cry in school, doesn't mean we're hurt. Well, I cried in school 3 times this year... I know I'm weak.
I really thought I liked this cohort but hahaha I change my mind. This cohort's horrible... When are they going to grow up? Start acting their age? I don't even know. I kinda feel bad for them. They really have nothing better to talk about.
Well, so this year I'm going to ... I didn't even do or say anything in the first place... I don't understand why I'm getting all this unnecessary attention from people. I'm just going to get by this year, hopefully.
Everything died down, as of now... I have a feeling this whole thing would start again.
I can't even seem to post a picture of my face without hesitating or photoshopping my face... to make myself look better...
I just can't help it.. I choose not to give a fuck, but I really can't help it. I can't ignore hurtful words, I'm sure most people can't either. Well, I can ignore it, but it will stay in my mind forever, you know. I'll still know that people have called me ugly, fat, and stuff, I know they're simple words that shouldn't be affecting me at all, but god damn, those words hurt.
Oct 19, 2012
Oct 13, 2012
SLEEPOVER
So the other day, on Tuesday night and Wednesday, I slept over at Tanima's house :)
We didn't sleep til 6.30 in the morning, and I woke up at 8am, while Tanima still slept.
We baked stuff and tried watching " The Orphan" but we pussied out cause it was 2 in the morning...so we ended up watching " LOL" instead...
We didn't sleep til 6.30 in the morning, and I woke up at 8am, while Tanima still slept.
We baked stuff and tried watching " The Orphan" but we pussied out cause it was 2 in the morning...so we ended up watching " LOL" instead...
Jun 12, 2012
DIY DAY
Yesterday I went to Charlene's house to make dreamcatchers and a flower garland (:
since Charlene doesn't want me to post the flower garland picture's I won't, haha
IHSS CAMP
PICTURES TAKEN AT BUKIT BROWN CEMETERY, LITTLE INDIA AND BOTANiC GARDENS. I'M NOT A PHOTOGRAPHER SO MY PHOTOS AREN'T WELL TAKEN.
YAY PORTRAITS OF PEOPLE NOW
My IHSS group members and I decided to head to Botanic Gardens to film, interview, and take photos for the documentary. well these are only some of the many photos I took. The reason why most of the pictures are in Sepia's because we wanted to make them nostalgic-looking.
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| kinda saturated the color too much, but this is Ariel :D Fish eye len's Carol's btw |
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| Kristy in black & white :D |
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| Ms Teo! She left the school after IHSS Camp though ): |
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| JAPANESE ISLAND! get it? |
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| I spilt water on my shirt, and the water made a shape of a heart... |
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| HUGE grave |
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| Jay's macbook pro mirror, how cool is that?! |
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| food we had |
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| tryna be A& F models..... |
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| haha they look so tired, except for Jerico! |
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| Mosque's are soooo beautiful |
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| my henna |
My IHSS group members and I decided to head to Botanic Gardens to film, interview, and take photos for the documentary. well these are only some of the many photos I took. The reason why most of the pictures are in Sepia's because we wanted to make them nostalgic-looking.
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| we interviewed him and Rusty (: |
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