Darkness

Yesterday was horrible...
one of the worst days ever...
Mrs Sara said something about me again? I really don't what her problem is honestly...
I just felt so moody ever since after Biology.
When I got home, I felt even shittier... my parents came home and my mom just suddenly started whining at me about how i don't do any shit as usual.. and she said that I'm lazy and other things
and I just couldn't take it and went back into my room, switched off the lights and just laid on my bed.
Then my stupid ass sister decides to walk past my room and give EXTRA COMMENTS.
She just said " ohh she's sleeping again, she seriously does nothing"
and my mom was just like, saying how I 'm like a pig, i eat & sleep all day...
THEY WERE IN THE FREAKING KITCHEN, AND I COULD HERE THEM FROM MY ROOM, yup, they were talking loud purposely so that i can hear it.
and my dad was like " so, you don't need food?" and asked if I was alright, and wet back to the living room and told my mom that i said I was okay, so i should be ok..
HELLO, I'M CRYING?! HOW AM I ALRIGHT?!
fuck, so they never asked if I was alright after that, and I just fell asleep crying.

You see, the reason why i started to cry was cause I was just fed up with everyone.
I can't talk to anyone about anything anymore, no one listens, or doesn't give a fuck.
So i fell asleep at like 10pm, and woke up at 6.30am to go to shower and go to school.

I went to school today, went for Bio, and just skipped all the other lessons... except for MT and VA.
Tanima and I were just hanging at the back of class, talking, sleeping and eating, i felt much better after that, so thanks tanima (:
I cut myself and it really hurts this time... i don't like how some people are like" ohh cutting yourself is for attention" I'm just like...
I don't think about cutting myself, it just happens, for some reason i can't control it...
but after i do , i'm just like " why the hell did I cut myself?! am i stupid?" so, yea.
the pain is nice, i like it. weird, but i like it. so stfu.
right now, I find that some of the people i know are fake, plastics or just....

Well, today ended pretty okay, VA was pretty fun cause we were just sitting outside doing nothing.

and oh, tanima and I are thinking of combining birthdays together, a big birthday, not sure yet cause we need money

That's it.