Pretenders

I really don't know how to put this, but i feel like shit.

Why I feel like shit?
Might sound extremely selfish and stupid, but i feel like no one cares about me. Either that, or they're all pretending to care. Everyone including my parents... I cry in my room, they don't ask me if I'm alright, nothing. Every little thing affects me and makes me sad, I don't care if it's a joke or not, call me boring that I can't take a joke, i don't care. It hurts okay? I don't like being laughed at either. I may have said something funny, but it's not really that funny if I was being serious.I mean, it might have sounded funny to you, but it  just hurts when someone laughs right in your face, at you. I feel like people only talk to me when they " feel like it". It's as if people don't really care if I'm alive or not, it hurts... I'm just really insecure about everything right now. I really don't get why my mom is not being understanding at all. I cry and then she tells me to stop being a cry baby and all, i ask her something when she's not in a good mood, she answers back really rudely, i don't know, I find it really hurtful when she does that cause she uses things about me against me. well, great, i'm tearing up again.

Call me a attention whore, i honestly do not give a fuck. OH look what I found on Tumblr, this makes total sense.

NO WONDER WHY PEOPLE HIDE SELF INJURY AND SUICIDAL URGES

you cut - you are emo

you post that your cutting - you are an attention whore

you post that you want to die - you are an attention whore/you are lying

you dont tell anyone, someone finds out - you are a freak

you die from suicide - you’re selfish