Just Forget About It

to make this post look nice, here's a picture of a rainbow snowcone:

well, the other day i went to KL for a day, and i want to live there.
I went rockclimbing for my OIP group.
blahblahblah...

and now, time to complain.
you see, i feel like shit again.
i miss you-know-who a lot...
i miss talking to him :/
i'm just in such a bad mood right now..
it WAS good, but i don't know what happened after that,
maybe it's cause of PMS
i don't know, but i just feel so shitty right now.
i don't even know what to say, this is really pathetic
well, first off, i feel like a total loner, i feel like i have no friends who're there for me.
NONE. it's sad, haha.
I feel sorry for myself for being soooo socially, not right.. idk
one minute i'm happy, then i'm suddenly fucking pissed.
I'm so disturbed in the head, and so screwed up...
I don't even know what goes on in my head most of the time.
and i'm very sure i'll get retained, cause i didn't hand in my artworks and i didn't put much effort in studying, i don't know what i'm doing with my life anymore. i'm just failing so bad...
i'm just terrible at everything the only thing i'm like, good at , is eating and making unnecessary noise and be annoying.
I just have so much to say, but i can't say it right, for some reason.
I just need someone to hug but i can't hug anyone, cause it's just awkward cause people know I hateeeeee hugs, but fuck it, i'm so deprived of it, i hug my fucking pillow for fucksake and my dog..... i feel so, yea might sound pathetic, but lonely...
that's about it.
i just can't rely on anyone anymore,
i can't expect anyone to be there for me...
i can't find the right guy either, wow to think of it, i really am pathetic haha, i don't even feel sorry for myself anymore..  :/
this is embarrassing, but i need attention, yea i'm a attention-whore, i just can't help it, i'm so, i'm just so frustrated with myself right now...