The things I do when I'm high....
lol I don't even smoke weed constantly :/

OH and If.. IF I HAD THE MONEY TO LEAVE THIS GOD DAMN HOUSE, i would've left YEARS ago. I can't stand living here. My mom AND dad EVEN MY YOUNGER SISTER orders me around to do shit, you think I don't have things to do?! Ya, I may stay up til like 7 in the morning, waking up at 11pm, but, I NEED SLEEP TOO YOU KNOW? They don't believe I have insomnia they don't believe I have ADD... i mean, I obviously have it. I just want a person, A THERAPIST to listen to me and help me. wait, actually i don't need that shit. I DO NOT NEED A THERAPIST. My dad wants me to drop out of school and start working... what?! My dad throws things at me, breaks things in the house, shouts a lot... and to mention, my mom constantly screams at me, especially in the morning.
This might sound stupid and attention-seeking, but I just want to end my life so that I don't have to worry about this whole situation. I don't even have proper friends who I can talk to every day... lol. I don't have anyone who I can call at 4 am in the morning to talk to and cry to. I kindaaa feel sorry for myself, haha.
Anyways, people who have those kinda people , should feel blessed. Even if I die who'd come to my funeral? i don't think anyone would.. omg, that's so sad. haha. I know some friends who might be reading this might be sad or whatever betrayed, i don't know, but well, honestly you guys are just watching me fall apart...I know i'm being mean, but you people are just living your lives, i don't blame you for that, but come on' don't say " I'm your friend, you can talk to meeee" when you dont even care, let alone, listen.Well, i would kill myself if I could BUT, I still have many things I want to do in my life, ( drop-out or not) so, committing suicide will have to wait. I just can't wait to forget everything that happened in SINGAPORE, and just move on with my life in Japan as a new person. Well, i blame myself that i'm so fucking dumb, and did so badly, but what's done is done. and I am aware that suicide's not a thing to mess around with, but i'm serious.